Did You Do This, Too?

When I first became pregnant with my first daughter, I could not believe it. I still remember the morning I decided to take that first test, and the complete shock I felt when I saw the faintest second line. 

During my lunch break at work that day, I went and bought a box of pregnancy tests and took one in the staff bathroom. It was still positive.

I went on to take at least one pregnancy test per day, for several weeks; taking pictures to make sure that the line was, indeed, getting darker over time. 

Still, every time I went to go to the bathroom, I feared I would see blood in my underwear.

I feared losing this pregnancy - something I had wanted for a long time.

Since becoming certified in perinatal mental health, and working with many other pregnant people, I have learned that I am not alone in these experiences. 

If I had a nickel for every time someone told me they were taking pregnancy tests to make sure they were ‘still pregnant’, I would have a lot of nickels. 

If you are in your first trimester, and these words are resonating with you, please know you are not alone. 

And if you are wanting more support in your pregnancy experience, please go to the Postpartum Support International website and click on their ‘directory’ tab to find a perinatal mental health therapist.